Since my last post, it has been hard for me to get moving on blogging and other writing. My job in Chandler carried over into the new year. Twelve hour days don’t leave me much wiggle room during the week. On weekends I recover from the long commute.
I thought I had started a post on 12/16, but it was empty. I was on empty. Christmas and the end of the year came and went with a little more chaos than I had hoped. Chaos in one form or another spilled over into this year.
I got through constant car emergencies and repairs last year. I did make it through two years of unemployment, thinking all is well. But that was nothing. For six months, I’ve commuted two hours a day and worked ten-hour days. No peace. Constant chaos.
I “thought” I was content just like the Apostle Paul learned to be content in all circumstances (Phil 4:11). I’m so tired, I can’t tell you where I’ve been and have no idea where I’m going more so than last year.
Abraham didn’t know where he was going either. Hebrews 11:8 states: By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. (NIV84)
The good news is that my unanswered prayers have rolled over into the new year. Answers are on the way. Another year, another opportunity for dreams to come true. Another chance for the Lord to give me the desires of my heart, even if I’m not sure what they are.
May I “go” like Abraham to do as God pleases and be who I am to the fullest.
Poet, Writer, US Army (Retired)
I dreamed of writing when I was a youngster. The love of books and writing may have helped to dull the pain of severe sexual abuse as I was sexually abused by two men at my father’s place of work from age 8 to 12 or so. I learned about this for the first time when I was 50 years old. So, as a boy, reading was the only place I had to go to. My fantasy world was better and safer than my real world. I loved reading and writing.
Reading books and writing poetry are a joy to me still and are an important part of my life. (See my About Me page on my blog for the complete profile.)