It didn’t bother me that after my return
to hiking I was being passed by men,
women, children, beasts, and insects.
I hadn’t hiked this mountain trail since
summer last year. After I returned there
a few days in a row, it was clear my brain
got ahead of my body. I should have
listened to my body. I’m not really
disappointed. I’m exhausted. Over did it.
Age has a way of doing that. Some changes
are harder than others but change we will.
How we respond to or handle the changes
are the real tests! Chronic illness has my
attention which is truly annoying and
has contributed to a great amount of loss.
What happens when you pray for healing
and healing doesn’t come? When you believe
God heals and it still doesn’t come?
Things change. Some things don’t change.
This doesn’t change who God is, what he
has done, the things he can do, or has
promised to do.
God doesn’t change.
To try to stay in faith when my body is
screaming, “Don’t believe, God isn’t true” is
my measured response to these things that
I can’t change but must accept and deal with
the best I can each day. I settled for an easier
walk around my neighborhood yesterday.
Today much too much pain to walk either.
I would have preferred to write a romantic
haiku and not address the challenges of pain
and faith at all. What kind of writer would I
be if I only shared my heart on the good days?
You deserve the truth in any case.
Reality has no substitutes.
It is when we are at our worst that faith gives
us the best. God’s grace and blessings still
abound. Maybe not in ways I prayed for.
Things change. But not truth. But not hope.
Poet, Writer, US Army (Retired)
I dreamed of writing when I was a youngster. The love of books and writing may have helped to dull the pain of severe sexual abuse as I was sexually abused by two men at my father’s place of work from age 8 to 12 or so. I learned about this for the first time when I was 50 years old. So, as a boy, reading was the only place I had to go to. My fantasy world was better and safer than my real world. I loved reading and writing.
Reading books and writing poetry are a joy to me still and are an important part of my life. (See my About Me page on my blog for the complete profile.)