Unfinished


life and love
have not been
fair to us

this was love
but once and
never again

none like this

the agony of
love lost is
pure pain

an agony of
the heart that
time and tears

will not assuage

because all
heaven and
earth know

that like my love
for you will never
end this love

poem for you
will forever
stay

unfinished

to keep loving
you long after
I’m gone

Odds and Ends No. 69


I’m still in Oxford by way of Endeavor
back to Inspector Lewis but not sure
why I’m watching these over and over.

A middle of the week martini is rare for
me as was the salad. It was either that
or throw the lettuce out tomorrow.

The BBC must be part of my grieving
process or some process not sure
at this point.

What could have been a productive
book editing day turned into a so-so
OneNote vs. Evernote shoot out.

Add to that late afternoon thunder
storms and the day was meant to
be weird. The joy of the day was

texting you, loving you by emoji
and laughter that neither of us
could hear, but could feel deep

down inside we miss each other
so very much. Martini, salad,
cheese, and a few crackers with

Lewis and Hathaway where I
found them ten years ago made
me think about where I might

be ten years from now. Then, I
decided that wasn’t a good idea.
When I had a plan the future

went awry. Wrong plan. So, I don’t
have a plan beyond today and the
future remains a mystery. I put my

dishes in the sink and decided it
was far better for me to think of
you; so I smiled as I thought about

what it would be like to touch your
hand or trace your lips with my
finger and how lovely it would be

to linger over coffee with you every
morning for the rest of my life and
talk about anything at all.

There and Then


I walked straight into a dust
storm ten minutes out and
walked back and that was it

my gear and I were covered
with grit so a shower before
dinner was in order then I had

a sandwich and a jigger of
scotch to watch Endeavor by
my adventure didn’t end there

One Endeavor and one scotch
was my limit so I worked on
my writing notes stuff until I

started to think about you
I was reading notes about
first century Rome and Judea

and the like when I realized that
if we were alive then nothing
would have changed

I would have still been looking
for you and waiting for you to
arrive on the next camel

(gotcha dearest read on when
you stop
laughing)

I would have loved you just as
I do now and missed you the
same wanted you the same

only I would have loved you in
the there and then just like I
love you in the here and now

camels or no camels it still
adds up to always

Beyond Beyond


I got half way through
The Last Jedi and hit
the pause button

I’ve gotten older not
necessarily smarter
but today I did it

I bought the first decaf
I’ve ever bought except
by accident drinking

my second cup now
as its going on eight
and your day ending

you heard me right I’m
drinking decaf into the
night first time ever

I forgot to tell you today
because we got hung
up talking laughing

about the perpendicular
but really horizontal or
something like that

(the breathless and
speechless force
was strongly with us)

drat I still have to
put clean sheets on
my bed forgot all day

I may not even watch
the second half tonight
no need

I know you’re about to
lie down put your head
on your pillow

I can smell your hair
I can taste your lips
when we can’t touch

I know the true force is
with us a Jedi doesn’t
come close to what we

have and the force of
our love unites us
forever

beyond beyond

On My Eyelids


I missed you so
I couldn’t wait
another second

I had to text you
but you beat me
to it by a finger

touch by texting
woke up with
you on my eyelids

(so loving, so sweet)

that confirmed
what we both were
thinking and feeling

at the same time
though thousands
of light years apart

well, a slight
exaggeration to note
how uncanny it is

that we both missed
each other and
wanted each other

to the nth degree at
the same time while
so very far apart

yet our hearts and
minds were in
perfect alignment

(speechless)

so my dearest don’t
be surprised when I
tell you

I’m going to sleep
with you in my heart
on my mind and

on my eyelids

The Summer Wind


the love of my life took the form
of a fairy muse her breath was
sweet like the summer wind

then her heart whispered
what can I do for you

I could have sworn I felt the
brush of her hair or was it the

touch of her wings or her lips
parting the air

my heart was thinking that the
only thing keeping me from

kissing you is time and space
so I don’t know what you

can do for me but wait could
you take the form of the woman

I love and knock on my door
the air became cool your hair so

soft the smell of you so sweet
so which is the fantasy

am I alone or did I just hear a
knock at the door

the love of my life took the form
of a fairy muse her breath was
sweet like the summer wind

Seems Like Mars


if it was morning
I’d say something
like this is the

last thing I did
before I went to
bed last night

but I can’t why
because I’m
still up closing

in on midnight
while you are
sawing logs

a few hours
from first light
but I had to

tell you I love
you one more
time today

which if you
could hear me
counts for the

first I love you
for tomorrow
morning

but you can’t
hear me
I’m here

you’re there

by the way
choir practice
was a whopper

can you hit a
high G he
asked me

I leaned into
the mic and
said I have

no idea
I hit
something

all the while
my thoughts
ran the gamut

from Frankie
Valli to you
sound asleep

anyway here is
another I love
you from what

seems like Mars