when I read
what you wrote
long ago


“you wanted to
talk to me” and
share so much

I may never know
your “soft slow

how much I
ached for what
I missed then

fear being the
flip side of

I ruminated
about us now
and then

about your
love and
your pain

my dearest

know that if
I could stop
time I would

because forever
has no time
and no tears

because forever
is not a when
it is a where

where then and
now touch

This Time

this time

the never
ending pain is
so bad that life

becomes a
very bad movie
starring me but I

can’t walk out
because I want
to know what

happens and
how it ends
whereas hope

looks forward
and up not back
and down

faith looks
past the pain
when I’m not able

hoping that the
movie will get better
or at least end well

this time